Oh why is life so hard!

My mum's boyfriend, M, does my brother (C) and my boyfriend (lee's) heads in. They moan to me telling me what he's doing blah blah blah, but what am i supposed to do about it all!!?? It's as if they moan to me and expect me to sort it all out.

Yeah, ok WE should all be talking to Mum and telling her what we think. But i dont want to make anything bad, i dont want her to feel awkward or like her kids are unhappy with her! I dont want things to be worse than they are! She's been through so much in the past (with deaths, caring for family members, me moving to another country etc) that i just want her to be happy now.

I can deal with M. I dont let him interrupt me anymore or change my arrangements. I dont think he's as bad as C and L do. They think he does things on purpose to block us all out because he doesn't like us being around! I dont know if this is true. I can see how hard it would be to come into a family as close as ours and just try to fit in! We have our own way of doing things, talking to each other etc. It must be hard to come into that and kinda feel like your 'replacing' someone who's died! But at the end of the day, we're here whether he likes it or not so it's tough!

I can come back home and not see him for a few weeks/months till i go back again! But C has to be around him all the time, especially now that he's moving in to the house. C is 19 so should be able to talk about what he thinks! Every step of the way he has been asked how he feels about things, does he mind, how is he etc. But he wont say anything, just grunts 'yeah', that's it! I try to talk to him too but he doesn't tell me anything! So he just bitches to me about how I should be doing stuff about it, gets drunk and then gets upset, but wont do anything for real!!!

Lee's fighting with me because im just trying to get on with things but he thinks i should be talking to mum to sort it all out! Why is everything always on my shoulders! I can't deal with it! I want everyone to be happy!!!! Is that ever going to happen!!!

You can pick your friends...

Going home on Friday, for the weekend!! Woohoo!!! But we have to go to my horrible aunts wedding and i really dont want to!! My dads sister and brother were really nasty to him when he was dying, they didnt give a crap about helping him out and just being there (i think my aunt visited twice in the year that he was sick and she only lives a little while away!).
My dad did everything to help them out when they needed him and when he needed something back (nothing much, just for them to care) they weren't there for him. I'll never forgive them for hurting him so much when he knew he was going to die. My mum feels like she has to go because if she doesnt then she is the one who has snubbed them and they'll have something bad to say about her but at least if she goes she wont ever have to do anything with them again! I can understand what she's saying but i still wanna snub them and show them that i dont like them for what they did to my dad!!! He said to me that once he died i would never have to speak to them again if i dont want to so i know he wouldnt expect me to go to this stupid wedding if i didnt want to. The only reason im going is to look after my mum because they tried to start a fight with her at the funeral and i know they'll have something to say on Saturday!! They're horrible people!!!